Dear God, I didn’t ask for this, but you gave it to me anyway. I didn’t have a clue what I was signing up for when you started me on this journey of reading and studying the Bible almost 5 years ago. I had no idea how little I knew, and I had no idea how understanding the Bible would greatly impact me and others around me.
I would never have thought that the overwhelming majority of people don’t know what the Bible really says. I never would have guessed that those who “think” they know the Bible would be the hardest to talk to about it. I wouldn’t have thought for a second that people who go to church every Sunday would have so many excuses for not reading everything that is in that great Book of yours.
I didn’t know you would make every false teaching and Bible misunderstanding I heard jump out and hit me like a ton of bricks. I never would have believed the massive number of churches that fail to teach the Truth, or how many preachers you didn’t call and don’t approve of. I couldn’t have foreseen that once you showed me the Truth it would be so hard to hold back from telling others about it. I didn’t know that “daily” I would have to be a passionate defender of your Word. I didn’t realize how outnumbered I would be.
It never even crossed my mind that trying to educate other Christians for false beliefs would make them so defensive and leave me so dismayed. I definitely did not know how depressing it would be when you opened my eyes to what the world really thinks of you and your Word. I didn’t realize how many people use the phrase “we all have different interpretations of the Bible”, or how many rely on others to tell them about it instead of reading it themselves. I didn’t think about how guilty people would feel and how that guilt would cause them to deny the Truth instead of trying to change.
Lord, thanks for this awesome responsibility! Thank you for the lessons you are teaching me every day. Thank you for helping me understand that I have to prepare harder for those who “think” they know your Word than I have to for those who have never read it.
I’m sorry I got frustrated tonight. I’m sorry I started to feel sorry for myself about how difficult this road you have me traveling down is and will be. I can read story after story in the Bible to see that these feelings are typical of all who know the Truth and try to help others realize it. I know I am not alone and you are always with me.
I’m trying Lord. Please continue to be patient with me. Please continue to use me as you will. Thank you for knowing I could handle it with your help. Thank you for equipping me with the tools to do the job. Thank you for creating me for this purpose.
Please help me worry more about what pleases you than what pleases others.
I love you!
Matthew 5:19: Therefore anyone who sets aside one of the least of these commands and teaches others accordingly will be called least in the kingdom of heaven, but whoever practices and teaches these commands will be called great in the kingdom of heaven.