Son, here is what has happened since a little over a week ago when I told you I was done writing my advice for you. First off, I had been looking forward to Father’s Day weekend for weeks. It was fun but I was a dud, my mind was elsewhere. I missed 2 days of work last week, and I skipped going to church on Sunday. I went almost a full day before praying, and I started to feel stressed and unsure of what I was supposed to do.
Maybe the change I thought I needed was wrong. Maybe I am just not ready for that next step. Maybe I just needed a week away doing nothing to realize I can’t stop my current mission, or I risk going back to my old ways.
It is time to get myself back on track and see what happens. It’s time to get back to just opening myself up and being patient with God’s plan for me. I spent my entire day off yesterday playing online poker and watching back to back hobbit movies. I didn’t do one thing to help myself, you, or others. The idea I had about taking it to the next level I believe will happen someday, but it sure doesn’t feel like it is this day.
I couldn’t think of one thing to write about all last week. However, last night when I was 5 minutes in to watching the sermon I missed last Sunday, I had to pause it to write this. This is no joke son, God is so powerful! I know I need to be “all in” to receive the help and inspiration he gives me.
I felt like a loser all week. I have to do whatever I can to make sure it doesn’t happen again. It starts with church today. Let’s see how this week goes.
I love you more than anything son!
P.S. This may all sound familiar, but notice one important difference: It’s only been a week, not several weeks, months, or years.